footsteps in the sand

STORY

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamt he was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand:
one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of
his life there was only one set of footprints.

He also noticed that it happened at the very
lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he
questioned the Lord about it:

"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life,
there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when
I needed you most you would leave me."

The Lord replied:

"Oh my precious. precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
I didn’t leave you, it was then that I carried you."

hayley

la

lallalalalalalal.... singing..... lallalalalalala

if everyone loved and nobody lied

~~~~
IF EVERYONE CARED
by Nickelback
From underneath the trees,
we watch the sky
Confusing stars for satellites
I never dreamed that you’d be mine
But here we are, we’re here tonight

Singing Amen, I’m alive
Singing Amen, I’m alive

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We’d see the day when nobody died

And I’m singing
Amen I, I’m alive
Amen I, I’m alive

And in the air the fireflies
Our only light in paradise
We’ll show the world they were wrong
And teach them all to sing along

Singing Amen I’m alive
Singing Amen I’m alive

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We’d see the day when nobody died

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We’d see the day when nobody died

And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We’d see the day when nobody died

We’d see the day, we’d see the day
When nobody died
We’d see the day, we’d see the day
When nobody died
We’d see the day when nobody died

hayley

playing for keeps

QUOTE
"I guess we're playing for keeps now, I guess the kidding around is pretty much over."

there's always a point when you realize that everything is serious. that doing this thing isn't just fun and games... it's giving up stuff too. becuase it always comes down to whether you want to give it your all or give nothing. and sometimes people choose nothing and then everthing falls apart.

but it's the people with enough sense to know when something is worth giving everything for that give me hope. giving someone everything is harder than stopping everything. it's hard to have them know all your secrets, but so worth it when they can look you in the eye and still say they care about you.

give it your all every time... it's worth it

hayley

three choices

QUOTE
"You've only got three choices in life; Give up, Give in, or Give it your all."

i think you know which one is the best. give it your all. give your life everything you have. don't look back on your mistakes, only learn from them and never, ever repeat them. life live right now in this moment the way you want to live it forever. if you keep living that way, you'll never becoem something you don't like.

don't give up because something is hard. there are always people who can help you. who can carry you. and if no one can, they'll still help you anyways. they'll try. and even a little support can get you a far way.

don't give in to what other people want you to be. be yourself, it's really the only way. be someone who makes you feel good on the inside and if over people don't like it, too bad. it's the way things are. it's who you are.

live life to it's fullest.

hayley

i stayed

i'm still here no matter what you say

hayley

whatever

QUOTE
"And, baby, you can have whatever you like"

isn't it weird when you find a person you would give anything to, do anything for. they just have to ask you and it's already done. it's weird to think of how much they have of you. anything they want.

it's wonderful being able to tell them that it's ok... you'll always be there. they can take time to figure out whatever they need. you'll never change your mind about loving them. you'll wait until they can look you in the eyes and say that they love you with everything. she doesn't have even that small part anymore.

i have the bigger part of him than she does. he hates that we likes her still. so he'll get over her. and i'll get him. which is what i want.

hayley

heartbeat

QUOTE
"I need you like a heartbeat."

it's funny how people exaggerate

but this is a very real feeling. of looking at the people in your life and naming off the ones who are so a part of you that they are like your heartbeat. something you take advantage of and you can not live without.

be thankful for them

hayley

free

QUOTE
"You belong among the wildflowers. You belong in a a boat out at sea. Sail away, kill off the hours. You belong somewhere you feel free."

everybody has to feel free somewhere. where no one can touch them and no bad thought can interupt them. just one spot where the world comes together to make everything alright. it's a beautiful spot to be. lost in whatever memories that lead you there.

hayley

give anything

QUOTE
"All I want to have is all that you can give me and I'll give right back everything I have in me 'cause nothing ever felt as right as this does right now"
-The Best Thing, Relient K

there's always one person in ours lives that we would give anything to. one person who would give us anything. one person who just makes the world all seen fine. sometimes there's even more than one of these wonderful people.

i've got three of them. they're beautiful people. they make me so happy. i think you shoudl htink right now about your people. give them a call or a wall post and just tell them that you care. because every person loves to hear that they are special to someone else.

hayley

music

QUOTE
When the world seems dark and torn, the beauty of music is always there to string it back together in breathtaking harmony.

music is beautiful. it tells stories and emotions many wouldn't dream of saying out loud. music is the heart and soul of the world... because where would any of us be without music? probably in a black hole. i would be i know. music fuels. life. it brings beauty to the world. it makes us feel things. good or bad. but mostly good.

hayley

too much :)

QUOTE
"Even my best friend wants to beat me up because I say your name too much."

yea. i do say his name way, way too much. but my best friend (laura-best friend) says she doesn't care. so... that's a plus. but it seems like all i think/talk about is him. it's smiley.

but i haven't talked about him to my other best friend (drew- best friend) i wonder if drew will get mad... i think not (not that he can do anything about it ;))

but it's a wonderful feeling, knowing someone affects you that way. i've been searching for it on and off for about seven months now. i love it. i love being with someone who makes me feel like i want to be with them all the time. (except for the fact that we're not "going out") but it's still wonderful. i've had a lot more butterflies than normal of late.

hayley

wrapped

QUOTE
"you've got me wrapped around your finger"

and it's the truth. i'm wrapped around his fingers and there's no way to get free now. it will take a lot of sharp objects and ripping. somehow i'm ok with this. i like it. i am his.

"this is the last night you'll spend alone, look me in the eyes so i know you know, i'm everywhere you want me to be. the last night you'll spend alone, i'll wrap you in my arms and i won't let go i'm everthing you need me to be."

hayley

me+you=4eva

QUOTE
"If ever there is a tomorrow when we're not together. there is something you must always remember: you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think, but the most important thing is, even if we're apart, i'm always with you."
-winnie the pooh

repeated and overanalyzed

QUOTE
"CAUTION: anything you say to me will be repeated to and overanalyzed with my best friend."

recently someone wondered why my best friend knew something that they hadn't told her. i laughed and said "because she's Laura." that may not make sense, but it is the reason.

having a best friend means you can share anything with them. you tell them everything. gossip and drama are the main things other people hear about. it's just the way life works. having someone who knows all the same things as you and, most times, thinks in the same manner, is a very good thing.

it makes it so you don't have to worry about analyzing any of life's problems alone. you ahve someone there telling you what they think. it's just great.

especially when friendship gets to the point where you can start a question and they interupt you with the answer. i've had this happen so many times it isn't even funny. and i can tlak with my mouth full and everyone will hear gibberish and i just point to my best friend and she translates for me.

i think everyone needs that kind of friend.

hayley

(don't think i forgot you drew! you're my bestest friend... whcih is different than laura)

song in your heart

QUOTE
"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words."

and sometimes your friends are the only ones who can hold you together. by lending you their strength. friends are the most important thing in life other than family. they know things you could never tell your family. true friends will shelter you and love you no matter what. even if you make mistakes.

but sometimes it's hard to know who you're true friends are. but next time you spiral down and are on the floor, look up. see who's around you. they are the ones you want to keep forever. they love you no matter what condition yoru soul or heart are in. the rest of yoru friends are just there for fun. just along for the ride.

friends shouldn't be scared to sing you alseep at night if the dark gets too scarey.

hayley

stronger

QUOTE
"She looked back on her life and realized everything that happened had only made her that much stronger."

it doesn't matter that this quote is refering to a female. it can really mean anyone. anywhere.

sometimes things just happen in a way that hurts. that hurts really bad. there are really two ways of dealing with this. One is to wallow in it. To just let the hurt flow over you and drown you. You can barely manage it and pretty soon you break from the pressure.

the other way to deal with it is stregnth. to reach down inside yourself and say no. i'm not going to let this control me. i'm going to be strong and i'm going to work everyday towards being alright. that's really the only way. otherwise you'll always be hurt.

waiting around for something to fix you isn't going to work. i've tried it. i know people who have tried it. all of us realized that waiting sucks and does not work. the only that can fix us is ourselves. one day we just decided we were sick of it. and we decided to get better.

this is what makes us stronger. like lifting weights with your mind. next time soemthign bad comes along... you won't let it control you. you'll over come it much faster. you'll be stronger.

hayley

diary screaming out loud

QUOTE
"I feel like I'm standing naked in front of the crowd and these words are my diary screaming out loud and I know that you'll use them however you want to."
-Breathe (2 AM), Anna Nalick

everything i do and everything i say are ways of peaking into my soul. but i've become very good at hiding what i truly feel. i put up a facade and only if you catch me in a moment of weakness can you see the true me.

it's the strongest thing i've got. the one thing that keeps me together. my facade that hides me. it's as strong as i am, which is considerable. i am strong, i've learned this through the many times i've come out of something alive and whole, with only scars to prove i was there.

i am strong, and that is the reason i hide myself.

hayley

dangerous damage

QUOTE
"Damaged people are dangerous because they know they can survive."

when i read this quote i had two reactions. the first one was serious, sadness. the second was laughter.

i was serious/sad because this is the truth. once you go through something hard, the next thing that is hard is much easier to deal with. but it's sad that youhad to go through ANYTHING that is hard. it would be nice if life was easy. but that's not the way it is. hard things come around all the time. but each new one makes the next one that much easier.

i was laughing because we are damn dangerous. we fear nothing because we know we can handle it. beware of us.

but, this all boils down to faith and love. in order to make it trough hard things you have to have faith that you'll make it through and the love of someone you care about. and that past knowledge that you made it then, you can make it now.

hayley

1 Corinthians 4:17

QUOTE STORY

--A hundred reasons why I shouldn't, but I lost my heart in wanting him to win. –We Run, Sugarland--

sometimes things that shouldn't be, happen anyways

--I never thought I'd risk the chance of being hurt again, but when I see you it's all worth it. --

sometimes people promise things

--I'll never hurt you--

sometimes they just can't keep promises

--She had said yes and it hadn't been a lie then. But it turned into a lie at some point, because here she is. -Nick and Norah--

sometimes they all turn into lies

--Love is like a piano falling from a four story window and you were in the wrong place at the wrong time. - Ani DiFranco, Two Little Girls --

sometimes love kills

--Love is like lightening... you get struck once, babe, and it kills--

and sometimes that's ok

--They say you can't live without love. Tell them oxygen is more important. –House--

because some things serve a higher purpose

--I am sending you Timothy, my son whom I love, who is faithful in the Lord. He will remind you of my way of life in Jesus Christ -1 Corinthians 4:17--



i decided to read the bible and i started with 1 Corinthians (don't ask how... it was long and random) so i was just reading it and i come across that verse up there ^. my brian froze and i almost peed myself. i understand now why all of this happened. god sent me tim to remind me that he is there. almost god's way of slapping me and saying "wake up, bitch. i'm right here" so, this all happened for a reason and that verse cements that fact. i hope you realize how monumental this all is. how wonderful that verse is and that i found it right away in the bible like that. JC's up there cheering for me.

hayley

i am strong

QUOTE
i am strong because i am weak
i am beautiful because i know my flaws
i am a lover because i am a fighter
i am fearless because i have been afraid
i am wise because i have been foolish
i can laugh because i have known sadness

just because something bad happens doesn't mean that you can't learn from it. it doesn't mean you can't turn it around and be happy.

in order to enjoy the good moments in life you have to know what it feels like to be beaten down. to be thrown in the dirt and spit upon. so you can crawl back up and look up and feel the sun on your face and the warmth of the breeze and know it's not something you can take for granted. every little thing that is good in life is there to balance out all the bad things.

life is never perfect. nothing is perfect. but every single thing has some good quality.

think of something you dislike about yourself. now think of something good. keep doing that (and don't be modest) it's funny how it all balances out

life really isn't as bad as it seems

hayley

anger manager

i don't have a quote today. i don't have the time to find one. so i'll just talk about my issues.

sometimes when you get angry, so angry that you can't hold in your emotions and you HAVE to let them out physically. it's really hard, because you most likely end up breaking something. but you just gotta get a little bit of it out. throw something that you know can't break or slam doors or in someway express your anger WITHOUT harming anything or anyone.

then you just gotta take a step back. call someone. serious shit. call someone who will help or just someone you trust. it doesn't matter if they can help you or not. you just need something to do so you stop throwing things, because if that goes on too long you will end up breaking something important. and that sucks

after you've called said person stay on the phone until you calm down enough not to do anything stupid. just calm down and stay calmed. and after that do things that will distract you. do not just sit there otherwise you'll resort back to your throwing tendancie. so. here's the steps to being angry:

1. throw a few things
2. call someone trustworthy
3. calm down
4. stay calm for a while
5. get off the phone
6. find things to do so you don't relapse 'cause if you do you have to go back to the beginning and that's six steps... that's a lot. ugh. and i bet the person you called won't be happy with you calling them again. so... don't skip this step.

alright. so. this was really my way of dealing with intense anger/freaking. it works. i had to do it today.

hayley

change

QUOTE
It's sad how times change.


it is indeed sad. so many things can change in such a short amount of time. just look back at the last month of your life... the last six months? the last year? i'm sure you can measure that time in how much you've changed and how much your world has changed.

i look back and i can't believe it. i literally have to do a double take on who i used to be. i have changed so much, i shutter to think of who i was. it scares me. i am content with who i have become, even through all of the tough shit i had to go through to get here.

it was all worth it to become the person i am today. beautiful and wonderful and semi-calm. (i've been workign on that ;)) anyways.

look back in yoru life and see how you changed. what certain things made you who you are. and if you're going through some tough times rigth now, just know it can all get better. it's all just there to help you grow up into someone wonderful.

<3
hayley

FAITH

QUOTE

"Just because someone follows a certain faith does not necessarily mean it is the rigth path... perhaps no one religion contains all of the truth of the world. Perhaps every religion contains fragments of the truth and it is our responsibility to identify those fragments and piece them together."

-Brisingr, Christopher Paolini

faith and religion are two very hard topics to talk about. i realize this... i've just been searching for exactly waht i believe for the past month and it's quotes like this seem to confuse me even more.

how do we know what or who god really is? i think we all have something that we think he is, every person thinks of him differently. i believe that he morphs to whoever each person needs. so when each religion tries to force others to believe the say way as them it's wrong. one can not simply be told what to believe. we have to look into our hearts and see.

i just think the religious turmoil in my life needs to take a back burner. i will figure it all out in time and God will help me see him in the correct light. for now i only worry about the little things in my life and trying to make the best of it. God wants me to keep myself happy. and that's what i'm going to do. i think everyone should do what they can to make themselves happy.
hayley

get there

QUOTE


"Just because today is a terrible day doesn't mean tomorrow won't be the best day of your life. You just gotta get there."


it's something like this that gets me through my bad days because i hold on to the fact that things will get better. because everything can get better, except death. that's a permanent thing.

what i'm trying to say is: even if for a moment life seems hopeless you just have to look into your future and see the good that could come. or look into your past and see the good that had transpired. everything in life could turn into something good.

just slow down and make the change you want in your life. sometimes these changes just come upon you, other times you have to fight for the goodness. it's worth waiting for no matter what way it comes.

hayley

sorry

sorry i haven't talked in a while.

no quote seems like a good idea right now. i'm a little bit in my depressing stage right now. it's really nto that fun and i don't feel like talking about happy things and i don't feel like talkign about sad things. so i'm just not talking.

hayley

wish

QUOTE

"It's 11:11... make a wish."



it may seem ridiculous to wish on numbers, because (der) it's not going to come true. i mean, seriously... just because they happen to be all the same number does not make them all that better than all the other numbers.



but, if you forget the whole wish-coming-true part, it really can be fun. so just blurt (in your head) the first thing that comes to mind. the first thing you can think of that you want. try it next time you see eleven eleven come up on your clock. you'd probably be surprised. pleasently so.



hayley



(btw, just me, you know ... maybe, a friend, secret agent man, edward nigma, a heartbroken romantic, a chocolate lover and whatever alias you may use in the future... i know who you are. and... damn... you are good at this whole comment thing. keep doing it... or i'll call you at three in the moring until i get married... love, sir!)

best friend

QUOTE
"Be a best friend. Surrender your chocolate."
-Dove Chocolate Wrapper

i realized that i talk about a lot of the same things over and over again. how arm-gnawingly boring. i just have a lot of quotes on the same things. i should broaden my quote horizons.

anyways

what makes a best friend? just liking eachother a lot? having wild sleep overs? hum... what?

i think it's a mixture of inside jokes and calling eachother names. i mean, if you can call someone "bitch" or "asshole" and they think nothing of it, then you two are definitely in for the long hall. best friends are the people who will always be there. like, until death do you part, non-sex verison.

so. if you have someone who you call "bitch", have multible inside jokes, can see with you in the nursing home and would share their chocolate with you without a second thought, then you better inform them that you are sticking with them like bubble gum sticks with hair.

hayley

belonging

QUOTE
"Why do we even bother? Why do we make ourselves so open to such easy damage? Is it all loneliness? Is it fear? Or is it just to experiance those narcotic moments of belonging with someone else?"
-Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist, Rachel Cohen and

this sums up the questions i've been asking myself lately. why do we love when we know that it will end up with a break up? i didn't quite understand this. i don't think anybody truely does, but this book got it at least a little right.

i think part of the reason we love is to belong to someone else. to be theirs and to have someone be yours. it feels good and right. something you don't want to give up. no one but a lover can quite fulfill this role.

perhaps, it is as the quote hints. a mixture between lonliness and fear. lonliness... it's not fun for anyone to be alone, but if you share your thoughts and feelings and waking moments with someone else it makes them all more real. to you and to the world. fear... of lonliness. of not belonging. of belonging. of giving yourself up. of not giving anything. of darkness. of light. there are a hundred reasons to fear. and loving someone else is one of them.

i'm not going to give any advice. i just know that belonging to someone (anyone) is worht all the shit afterwards.

hayley

nothing in the world

QUOTE
"There's nothing like deep breaths after laughing that hard; nothing in the world like a sore stomach for the right reasons."

you know that feeling. when your stomach aches like you've been doing scrunches for the last 5 minutes? it feels good right? almost like you've done something worth while in your life. and you don't want that strange sore feeling to go away. you want it to stay and remind you that everything terrible in life can be put aside by one good, long, hard laugh.

that is what this post in about. nothing in life could be so bad if you just let go every once in a while. find some friends and watch your favorite movie or.... or go bowling! that is always fraught in laughter.

life is meant to be lived. you can't live life if you're always worried or sad. so comand you to laugh. right now. do it. you know you want to. come on. oh, come on. why aren't you? seriously? it's all i ask. one little smile. do it! oh, come now. i don't mean do it like that. get your mind out of the gutter, perv. :)

hayley

kiss cry dream

QUOTE
"The best things in life are unseen. That's why we close our eyes when we kiss, cry and dream."

i'm going to break this one down into three sections. why you close your eyes at each and why it's so good.

KISS= well, my logical part says "because it would be effing awkward if you opened your eyes while kissing someone. but, as always, my ethical side wins out.
anyways, i think you close your eyes because then you don't feel with them. you don't have to think about what you're seeing and process it and clutter your brain with unnessessary things. you feel with your arms and your lips and your heart. It's just so much better that way. to feel things in an unlogical manner. your eyes are always logical. they can only see what is right in front of them. your heart sees the unseen beauty in life.

CRY= logical: because you're trying to stop it? but, crying can be a good thing. i'm stil trying to figure out how. is it because it releases emotion and afterwards, after you sleep, you feel better? or is this only talking about happy crying? crying when you're so happy, so overwhelmed! that you just can't keep it inside. those kinds of tears are the best. the kind that just fall out and make happy little drops on your skin. this is something that seldom happens. i bet you can't remember the last time this happened. i can't. i just know it feels so good. to be filled with so much good emotion.

DREAM= logical: because you sleep? in order to dream you have to sleep and in order to sleep you have to close your eyes. but, true dreaming isn't the kind where you sleep and have strange disjointed dreams. that's just your mind's way to... express?... itself. but true true true dreaming. the real deal dreaming. comes from the heart. the deepest things you want. the ones you would do anything for are born in your heart. like cinderella said "a dream is a wish your heart makes." you can close your eyes and feel them there. feel them growing and changing and being. they are the most wonderful thing. even when they don't come true. they are still wonderful. definitely a good thing

all in all, i think you should try to find a way to do these things. find your dreams. find someone who you can be close to. cry for all the good things in life. just live it up.

hayley

brace yourself for the impact

QUOTE

"I lock my hands behind my head, I cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you."

–Am I Missing, Dashboard Confessional


the way i see this song is someone knowing an inpending doom is coming (i see it as a love thing, that's just how my brain works) they know something bad is coming. something that will hurt, something that they can somehow prepare for, even though they can't stop it. so they do.

they protect all of themselves they can. their brain ("lock my hands behind my head") their heart ("cover my heart") their body ("hit the deck")

they are also trying to protect the other person. i feel it's more of a "you don't don't know how much this will hurt you. protect yourself a little" because contrary to popular belief, a break up hurts both parties involved.

but all you can do is brace yourself. there really is nothing you can do about it. though, if you think you ahve a really good thing, a right thing, fight. fight for what you need/want/have. sometimes i wish i would have fought.

hayley

comment response
Vlad: break ups do hurt both parties but it isn't the end of the world

dude. stop raining on my parade!

but you are right, it isn't the end of the world. yet, for just a few moments it feels like it is. even if you hate eachother it still feels like it.

change your life

QUOTE
"Every connection has the potential to change your life."
-Dove Chocolate Wrapper

every person you meet. every person you say hi to. every new thing you do. could change who you are. i know it seems impossible, but it's true.

try it sometime. try letting someone new sort of take over. don't try to go against the grain. if someone new feels right just go with it. it can be fun. and when it's over, you can see how much you've changed.

two years ago i met someone. i let it go where it wanted. and now i'm so different than what i used to be it isn't even plausible. in two years i grew up so much. i've learned what is like to love, to hate, to break, to mend. i'm more mature now and i found someone who will always be there for me. and i grew more confident.

new people are wonderful. don't be afraid to try them out sometimes. let them change your life.

bittersweet victory

QUOTE
"it's a bittersweet victory, lovin' the ghost in front of me"
-Keep You, Sugarland

ok. first, this song is the sizzle. the entire song describes what it's like to love someone so much just to have them leave you. it was me for a few weeks after drew broke up with me. it's beautiful. if you can find and listen to it please do.

anyways.

sometimes, after someone breaks up with you you still see them. everyday. and talk to them. and love them. yet they only see you as a friend.

part of you is screaming and ripping and hurting. becuse you can't have them. never again. they will always just be a ghost. not what they can be, what they were. and it hurts like hell. seeing them happy when you're so unhappy.

another part of you is happy beyond belief. if they spend time with you it's almost like you're still together. almost like they still love you. even though you know it's all unture, it still pays to lie to yourself.

it's a victory, because you can still see them. but it's bittersweet because afterwards you feel awful. you still love this person who is a ghost.

the only thing you can do is take a step back and figure out what's right for you. sometimes it's not tlkign to them ever again. just quitting them cold. other times it's just stopping for a little while and beginning again when you can handle it. (i.e. are over them) sometimes you can stay and you will find someone else whileyou see them. there might be soemthign else that works. it all depends on the person. all i know is that it's really hard to do. i would know. but it can be done.

hayley

hello and welcome

hi, i figured before i started in on the whole quote thing i would tell you a little about myself.

my name is hayley (obviously) and i live in wisconsin. it's really not as dorky as you think. i've never been closer than a few hundred feet to a cow, i've only ridden a horse once and i don't live on a farm. there are a lot of stereotypes about wisconsin and a lot of them are untrue. one thing about me IS true, though. i apsolutely love (love love love) the Packers. a little piece of my heart belongs to them and it's dyed green and gold.

i'm involved in forensics and theatre. it's pretty much my life. i'm quite the boring person when it comes to activities. i take vioce lessons. that's been going on for about 2 and 3/4 years now and soon my mom will be getting me guitar lessons.

i love my family and my friends. they are the ones who pick me up when i fall. i'm an only chold, so that means i am really close to my parentals. i'm with my mom all summer long and she's one of my very good friends (even though she drives me crazy! and we fight about once a day, i love her anyways) and i consider myself to be quite the daddy's girl since he never comes around in the summer because of work and i'm attached to him whenever he does get home. i love them both.

my friends are fabulous, though, since we're threatre nerds, we tend to get a bit dramatic. my best best best best best friend is laura. i'm always over at her house or she's over here... i'm contempating making her pay rent. we can read eachothers minds... we're practically one person. and my other really good friend is drew. he knows me better than anyone, even laura. we also have quite the history... something i don't need to get into. but i love both of my 'hos like none other. i would put myself between a mad shooter and them any day. :) i do have other friends (kesa, meghan, bethany, scott, michael, just to name a few) but those two are my besties fa eva.

i also have tim, my boyfriend. we haven't been dating very long, but we've already been through a couple things that should have broken us and yet we're still here. so, he's worth it. he's also helping me find my god. it'll be difficult, but i think one day i'll be able to say i'm a true believer. i'm sick of not believing in anything greater than myself.

well, i think i've said enough about myself. i haven't been able to write like that in a while... now i'm going to more on to funner (yup, it's a work now) things. like quotes. yay!

hayley